It's been a little over seven months since I've posted here.
A lot of reasons.
No, she never found out about the blog. As far as I know, she is still unaware that it exists.
We started seeing a marriage counselor and the counselor convinced me that I needed to live in the present and drop a lot of the past in order to move forward. And part of that for me was not dwelling on certain things, which I think I was doing here. It was an outlet, but part of the idea was to share what happened and because I wanted to follow the counselor's advice, I dropped the blog cold turkey to focus on our marriage.
Did it work?
Yes and no.
Things got better. A lot better. And then they exploded. Again.
It's almost like being back to January again.
When is enough enough? I mean, I think I know the answer to that question. I just haven't been able to say it out loud.
Anyway, I'm back. More tomorrow. If anyone is still out there.