Tuesday, March 10, 2009

And The Irrational Returns...

At the Big Important Job today, my wife has a Big Important Meeting. She's unavailable all day, save for an email or text once in awhile.

And over the course of the last hour, I have been beset by Bad Thoughts. Can't shake them, almost sick to my stomach.

I know none of it is true and that for some reason, the irrational part of my brain is working overtime, but the Bad Thoughts are just hammering away at me.

Fuck, I hate this.


  1. I have never gone through anything remotely like what you're experiencing, and I don't have advice to give.

    I just started reading your blog this evening and I'm really enjoying it. It is honest, and it is heartfelt. Buying the used lawn mower would have meant a lot to me. HUGE step in the right direction, in my not-so-humble opinion.

    Best wishes to you and your family for a healthy resolution to these issues, and keep up the good work at rebuilding your lives together.

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  3. I hope today is a better day for you! Just realize that you are going to have days like yesterday and it will pass.

  4. Have you ever checked out Marriage Builders? They have a website and a forum for people that are dealing with infidelity. It really is an insightful place. You can learn alot about the emotions you are both going through right now, as well as things you can do to get your marriage back on the right track. It helped me tremendously.

  5. Ashley - I have not checked out Marriage Builders, but I will now. Thanks for the tip:)